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Life's going to be abit different at the end of this year. Because, it will be a new chapter of life for me.

What will come?

Who knows?

who can tell me ?

what path should I choose?

will I lose everything I have now?

Am I going not going to be the same again?

Why am I feeling worried?

How am I going to handle such change ?

Am I going to lose what I love doing now ?

I guess life is an ever changing process. Nothing's permanent or static. Growing up aint easy and that's for sure, with more responsibilities and tasks to put on your shoulder. Who doesn't wants to enjoy life? But too bad this world rotates around wealth. I've learnt to accept the fact that wealth is almost everything to your life. Of course I'm not saying with money you can do everything you want; but my point is without money everything is virtually impossible.

Because of that, I will have to sacrifice things that I love doing and people I like being with. There's too much uncertainty to even begin with, and too much uncertainty to stand for what I wish and believe. Well, I guess I am just being adaptive towards changes. But one thing for sure, it's torturing in a way to actually realise things are not going to be the same again. As day passes and the day is drawing closer, you're in more denial you'll ever be. Untill the day comes and you're sitting in your room going through that moment, you just plunge into depression.