烦

烦，一句话。。 烦！

最近真的真倒霉， 做什么事都不顺利都阻三阻四的。。 电脑，电话，大学通通都出问题。 唉，真的好无奈。

给人劝告却让人笑老，像个老叔叔。 他妈的的你们这班狗屁不通的东西，这是叫着考虑周全!! 唉，干脆什么也别说了， 反正都不是我的问题，干嘛那么好心肠去理会人家的事呢。。

变，说变就变，说改就改。 人身就是那么的反复无常。 一变，什么都不再与往常一样了。 你走你的路，我走我的独木桥。 我的能力，也只有那么有限，做了也起不到什么作用。 算了吧，见步行步吧。。。

唉， 烦死了。。。

Autumn thought

Came across this song in my playlist and at this very moment, its a reflection of me.



It's called I'll Move On by Olivia Ong.



This road that I'm taking twists and turns



My life my chance turning dreams into reality.



Down this path faced with so many things



Sometimes I feel like giving up and turn away



Can't seem to go on



And I've been thru' this before



Now where am I?



Where do I stand?



A little lost here.



But I'll remember.



All those times you've bought me thru'.



I'd be a fool to give up cos' the goal is near



I'll move on I'll go on.



Lord I will take your hand.



And you will guide me along.



Survive thru' this storm.



So I say, come what may.



I'll hold on to my hope.



Yes, I will walk down this road.



And my passion drive will lead me on



Here I am Once again caught in the rain.



Looking back I've come so far



And I want to carry on



Take a step at time



It's alright.



Even thru' this rain, I want to smile again



Don't hold back now.



And i've been thru' this before.



Now where am I?



Where do I stand?



A little lost here.



But I'll remember.



All those times you've bought me thru'.



I can feel the sun shining down on me



Here I am, Here I am.



Lord I will take your hand.



And you will guide me along.



Survive thru' this storm.



So I say, come what may.



I'll hold on to my hope.



Yes, I will walk down this road.



And my passion drive will lead me on.

Sources

Lyrics : http://www.justsomelyrics.com/393736/Olivia-Ong-I

Picture: http://static.flickr.com/85/271112934_79f8d0b108_o.jpg

spacing out

Life's going to be abit different at the end of this year. Because, it will be a new chapter of life for me.

What will come?

Who knows?

who can tell me ?

what path should I choose?

will I lose everything I have now?

Am I going not going to be the same again?

Why am I feeling worried?

How am I going to handle such change ?

Am I going to lose what I love doing now ?

I guess life is an ever changing process. Nothing's permanent or static. Growing up aint easy and that's for sure, with more responsibilities and tasks to put on your shoulder. Who doesn't wants to enjoy life? But too bad this world rotates around wealth. I've learnt to accept the fact that wealth is almost everything to your life. Of course I'm not saying with money you can do everything you want; but my point is without money everything is virtually impossible.

Because of that, I will have to sacrifice things that I love doing and people I like being with. There's too much uncertainty to even begin with, and too much uncertainty to stand for what I wish and believe. Well, I guess I am just being adaptive towards changes. But one thing for sure, it's torturing in a way to actually realise things are not going to be the same again. As day passes and the day is drawing closer, you're in more denial you'll ever be. Untill the day comes and you're sitting in your room going through that moment, you just plunge into depression.