Roller Coaster Ride

I'm like in a roller coaster ride now. So many things are going through my mind.

Exams are around the corner, so much to read up yet so little time left, but at the same time I felt confident of myself passing the exams yet trying not to be over confident. Honestly, I shouldn't be bragging about exams since I only have two papers to sit, mainly because I have 2 100% internal assessment unit thus left me with 2 units with external assessment; which is good, at least I think so. Journals and more journals, that's what I'm reading through to prepare myself for the exam. Hopefully I'll do well cause I intend to do well for my masters. No more screwing around like what I did for my degree.

On the other hand, accomodation. I'm currently looking for a place to move in next semester primarily I want to cut cost on my rental cost. The current place I'm staying in now costs me 215aud per week. Considering the fact that its a studio, fully furnished and location, not bad for a bargain. But yet again, I would like to save up some dough for my future investment in some stuff I want to buy (I'll come to that later). Thus, me and my friend went on a search for available single rooms located around my place and we found one. Funny thing is, the rent is really cheap, 160 per week with fully furnished, including fees and blablabla. So, we called up the owner but was asked to leave her an email so she can contact us for an arrangement for house inspection. Why don't she call us instead ? o_O ??????? Oh well, I have no idea where exactly is the place cause it wasn't stated on the ad we saw, so yeh, we're still waiting for her reply. Hopefully she replies ASAP so I can arrange my vacating note and tidious process la dee da bi bubu hassle paperwork with my current agent. If I can move in, that'll be good. So I can move in before I actually fly back, else I have no idea where to dump my stuff when the lease for my current studio ends.

The whole idea of moving into a cheaper place is primarily to save up some extra cash, as a form of using remaining saved up dough to get some of the things I want to buy. This is the brain cracking part. I want to buy, an eletronical keyboard (music), a desktop, and a bogu set (kendo equipment). All of them except keyboard will cost me at least 900aud!!! Argh.. that's about, Rm2000. I want to get a keyboard so I can play and write songs. I want a desktop so I can play some games, I want a bogu set cause I'm doing kendo for long term and do not want to wear 2nd hand, rented and foul smelled bogu from my club! To be honest, the thing I want most now is bogu set. Since I'm doing kendo for long term, and desktop and keyboard and other things can come later. So, I went online window shopping and saw this bogu set from Japan, costing around 585aud when I first saw (during financial crisis). Seeing that, it was rather cheap for quite a good quality and nevertheless its from Japan!!! (NEVER BUY MADE IN CHINA BOGU SET). I thought I needed sometime to think about it, so I took my time. Today I checked again, it now costs 785aud!!! OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG. There goes my bogu. It's not that I can't buy but it became expensive for me and actually over my intended budget. BLUARGHHH I should have bought it. Should I buy now?! or wait for currency to drop?! or another financial crisis ? -_-......

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Anyways, back to studies!

Teru no Uta

Teru no Uta from Tales from the Earth Sea.
By Teshima Aoi

Far far above the clouds
against the setting sun

A falcon flies alone
soaring in the wind

I hear his lonely cry
so sad must he be

Riding the silent wind
a falcon flies alone

Reaching out with his wings
grasps the empty sky

Riding the silent wind
never can he rest

What is it within my heart
none can ever know

A heart like a falcon's
is this very heart

What is within my heart
none can ever know

Lonely falcon
in the empty sky

I walk alone
along deserted country roads

Walking with me side by side
you are always there

I feel your loneliness
lonely you must be

Crickets whispering
in the grassy fields

You walk there by my side
you walk the path with me

But you never say a word
never do you speak

What is it within my heart
none can ever know

Here inside this heart
that walks its path alone

What is it within my heart
none can ever know

The sadness of one
who always is alone.